I am for me
"When battle of Panipat was fought, Indian farmers were ploughing their fields a few KMs away"
That single statement mercilessly assaults our individualness & selfish behaviour. When a bomb blasts in Kashmir what exactly do you feel, What do I feel. That's exactly what those farmers must have felt then. What we feel is that something wrong is happening to us, but as far as we can go to our houses & have food.We don't mind it that much.It makes an awesome topic to debate, to discuss, to write blogs but to do anything naaaa. Why? because I am safe, MY family is safe.
British surveys says "Average Indian is highly individualistic, he always sees whats in it for him". I agree with them, don't you?That one statement explains me everything, starting from bribing & corruption of police to honking at traffic signals.
We all see what's in it for us. The inspector, the politician, the teacher, the doctor, the lawyer, the surgeon everyone only sees what's in it for me. We took this concept partly from west & left the most important part to them. They live for THEIR country, THEIR society, THEIR people. They have a broad picture. We took selfishness from there & shrunk it to fit ourselves. Don't that tell you how small we all have become.
Most disturbing sight to me still is of a person who is an Indian, born an Indian but is living in India because he cannot run to Europe or USA. He is constantly looking for a chance to join the better race & leaving behind where he belongs. That's what we have made of our society. How can a country grow when majority of its skilled population is living in it because it has to. They are not choosing to.
I have reasons & here they are
I will make more money
I will have better life
I will have American children
I will be happy
In all those Ies I forgets that I am leaving my country, my men behind in this condition. I am running from a problem because to me my strong country is not as desired as a smooth life.
Its fairly easy for me to blame our plight to BRITISH or corruption but internally like all of you I do realize, that their is something inside me which is not right.Something needed to be identified and rectified to get me, us out of this plight. But what we don't know.
Reason being; we are so hopelessly dependent on me,I & myself that we cannot recognize that this is something we need to get out of someday & someway.
I realize I was listening to a doha one day (doha is a small hindi rhyme which carries a lot of meaning)
It was like
"Jub main tha tub hari nahi ab hari hai main naaaahi".
means when I was there, god was not & now there is no more of me & heres god.
One of my friends was particularly confused about this & joked"what the use of god to me in absence of me".
That's how much we are dependent on it.We cannot see, feel & think beyond it.
Once I had a brief discussion with an american regarding why indian freedom struggle was special. How we got our independence without shedding blood & without getting our hands dirty.
He gave me a remark which sent a chill down my spine. He said " you guys got your independece cheap & the way you are going, one day you will lose it cheap."
This time this is not a blog, this is a cry to wake all of us up.This is a very strong nation. We all are a part of very strong & oldest culture & that's exactly why it is bearing with all of us instead of our meaningless selfishness. But truly speaking I don't know how much will it bear?
Arpit
